I Abandoned the Male Lead Who Cheated with the Villainess - Chapter 102
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The trauma of being born with ‘no magical talent’ had deeply impacted Blitzen’s personality and way of thinking. Blitzen murmured with a sigh,
“If I had power like you or Celestia, I wouldn’t have come here.”
Yes, this was his true feeling, the raw manifestation of his inferiority complex. And it was the moment Ivonne felt a clear and deep disappointment.
Blitzen didn’t love the person.
He didn’t love Ivonne or Celestia; he loved the power they possessed.
‘So, it wasn’t love after all.’
Ivonne felt a mix of relief and bitter emotions. It was a feeling close to defeat.
Oh, how ironic it was.
‘A pair created to love each other, to experience pure love, didn’t actually love each other in the end…’
Subconsciously, she had believed that true love must exist somewhere, even after being hit over the head by an ex-boyfriend, transmigrating into a fantasy world, and being rejected by the male lead while in the female lead’s body.
‘I swore never to believe in love again…’
Deep down, a part of her still thought that true love existed. Otherwise, why would she feel this sense of defeat?
Ivonne felt dizzy.
‘Alright….Fine. Let’s admit it.’
She swallowed countless sighs.
‘They say admitting it makes it easier.’
Ivonne finally acknowledged it. She was searching for love, waiting for it. The strong denial was, in fact, a strong affirmation.
She had denied the existence of love so vehemently because she desperately wanted it to be real. She hoped that true love existed in this world and that it would find its way to her.
An image of a familiar man flashed through her mind.
Black hair, pale skin, a man who epitomized the phrase ‘born of the shadows’. The only color he had were his striking purple eyes and blood-red lips. It was Rix.
‘…This is so ridiculous.’
Her mouth tasted bitter, as if filled with bile.
The irony of realizing, at this moment, that she had always wanted to love despite herself, was almost too much to bear.
Realizing her feelings for Rix, which she had recently denied, in front of Blitzen, who had made her realize that even in romance novels, true love does not exist, was both ironic and enlightening.
At this moment, Ivonne felt like she was back on Yucoralini Island, her emotions churning up like the waves of the sea.
Though she had no memory of that time, the chaotic yet peaceful night by the sea with Rix was deeply ingrained in her mind.
‘Ah, once again…’
She let out a bitter laugh. Once again, it was Rix. Her thoughts naturally revolved around him, and she found it laughable and pathetic that she had stubbornly denied having any romantic feelings for him.
One relief was that thinking about Rix had washed away the disappointment that Blitzen loved her power, not her, the original Ivonne.
Now, Blitzen’s presence in Ivonne’s mind seemed far too much.
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She couldn’t remember how she got back to her room. Despite everything, she had checked that Rix hadn’t returned yet. Her mind might only function properly when it concerned him, while everything else was a blur.
Lying in bed, Ivonne pressed her throbbing temples with her thumbs and thought.
‘How am I supposed to face Rix tomorrow?’
When she hadn’t realized her feelings, she could interact with him without any trouble. But now, that would be impossible.
‘I’m sure it will show.’
Her ex-boyfriend had said that it was impossible not to notice someone in love, even if they didn’t want to see it. At that time, her self-esteem was so low that she had clung to him, questioning if he didn’t want to acknowledge her feelings because he didn’t want to be with her.
Looking back, that seemed to be the start of their twisted, imbalanced relationship.
‘Wait a minute. He lived in his own world, barely noticing others, yet he knew I liked him. So…’
So what about Rix?
Due to his characteristic shy and socially awkward demeanor, Rix might seem oblivious, but the truth was quite the opposite. He was a deeply considerate and gentle man. Such an attitude could only come from someone who was very perceptive and adept at handling situations.
‘…Oh no, he knows. He absolutely knows. Rix must have realized that… that I like him.’
It was a disaster.
Her mind, now filled with the realization of her love, could think of nothing else. There was no room for cute reactions like ‘Oh my gosh, what do I do?’ or ‘This is so embarrassing!’
When a person is too shocked, all the blood drains from their body. With insufficient blood reaching her brain, she felt dizzy, and her hands and feet grew cold. That was exactly Ivonne’s physical state right now.
‘I wish I could turn back time.’
She had already been reincarnated, so why not time travel?
‘This is a world where even time can be manipulated. There might be a way to go back to the past.’
